time to go back to blogging! last time i blogged, i was still a med student. now i'm a certified doctor. dang, time flies. currently doing Housemanship. whoa, talk about sucking the life out of a person. gotta be in the ward by 6am, work non-stop till 6pm or later, then go home n eat like a pig cos overwhelmingly hungry. then sleep cos too tired. next morning, the cycle continues. 7 days a week, 365 days a year. when they say work from 6am-6pm, they really mean it. no lunch break, pee also gotta be fast. day off? u only get a day after u work 24 hours, and that's limited to one day a week. in total, u work at least 84 hours a week. what happened to gov's 'HOs must work less than 72 hours a week'? the worst part of HO, for me, is i dont feel the satisfaction of helping patients. it all becomes a list of jobs that u must do in a limited time, forcing u to work at a breakneck speed. no wonder the incidence of needleprick injury is the highest among HOs. currently, i even feel that the stethoscope is a chain around my neck. the atmosphere we work in is not exactly conducive. nurses push us around because they know we can't fight back, they can report us to the head saying we have bad attitude and we'll get extended. MOs can yell/give us a punch of sarcasm/ignore us because they are way smarter than us. specialist can just act like we dont exist because they are the highest on the food chain. anything you need to get done, just yell 'HOUSEMAN' and we have to come running. u need someone to change the patient's bedsheets? set line? history taking? look for a speculum? steal swab sticks from other wards? just yell 'HOUSEMAN'. your wish is our command. we are your slaves. slaves to patients, nurses, MOs, specialists, radiologists, laboratorists. i am still waiting for the day when i can say 'i love my job. i love helping my patients.' currently its still 'OMG, i have to work. useless medical degree and 10 years bond. why on earth are there so many patients?' need God's grace to help me change my mindset. must not be infected by the negative work aura. | 
